My very sleepy thoughts!!

So, It is 3:45 am and I am still awake! This week I have been having problems sleeping cause I hurt too bad and can't get comfy, but tonight it's the worst! The last two nights I have tossed and turned and got a little sleep, but tonight sleep isn't coming, which is really a bummer cause I am so tired, but I know that this happens to everyone and it's just something that I will have to live with! Thank goodness for facebook and my blog to keep me busy! I really should be doing homework, but I am afraid I am a little too sleepy for that and wouldn't remember what I have learned and that wouldn't do anyone any good at all. So, as soon as I am done with this post, I will try again to sleep and see if it comes!!
While I was looking at backgrounds to update my blog for Christmas, I decided that this was the only one that represented the real meaning, which I have been thinking a lot about lately! Our Christmas is not going to be an expensive one in any way, shape or form. Friends that we usually buy for are going to have to just get a card or something this year cause we could only buy for family and that didn't add up to much! But as I was a little depressed about this, I realized that some of the best Christmas' are the meager ones. You sometimes are allowed to focus on the Savior more than the gifts!! My parents surprised us with the best gift ever of plane tickets so we could go home for Christmas this year. This was our year to be with my family and we screwed that up by getting pregnant. There is no way I should be sitting in a car all the way to Vegas to get home, so we rearranged things a bit and was going to spend Christmas with Tom's family and Thanksgiving with mine. When they got us the tickets though I was so excited cause we could stay on our normal schedule, but more importantly, it's Kyle's first Christmas since he's been home from his mission, Jane's first Christmas as an official part of the family, and my grandma is going to be there too. She is taking a turn at each of her kids houses each year and there are six kids, so this wouldn't happen again for at least six years! Another reason I am so excited is that my parents will get to see me so far along in my pregnancy. I have changed a lot since my mom has seen me last and even more since I have seen my dad! My grandma, Kyle and Jane haven't seen me in quite a while too, and I am excited for that! Probably the next time they see me, my stomach will have deflated some, and our little Jaycee will be in my arms instead of my belly!!
Wow, I am rambling tonight, good thing I am not doing my homework! Back to the true meaning of Christmas! When we told my mother in law that plans had changed and we were going to spend Thanksgiving with her and Christmas with my family, she was so excited for us! Then her and Melinda decided that they would go work at a soup kitchen on Christmas morning! How amazing is that! If that doesn't say the love of Christ, I don't know what does! I am so excited that Jaycee's Nana and Auntie are such amazing people who know their Savior and serve Him every day of their lives!!
He has done so much for me in my life and I love that this time of year, I can take time out to really think about my blessings and what He has done for me!! I am so grateful for the Atonement where I can repent for the things that I have done wrong, and He takes my burdens upon Him! He actually makes me whole again! What greater love!! I hope that I can teach Jaycee to love Him as much as I do and I hope that she will gain an appreciation for what He has done for her!! I have chosen the best Daddy Jaycee could possibly have to help me do this! Tom is a man who has a very deep testimony of the Savior and what He has done in his life! I am so glad that he is mine forever and that we can take this parenthood journey together!
Well, I better close this before it turns into a book of random thoughts! Have a good night all, and wish me luck for getting some sleep!!

We can't handle any more catastophies!!

So, I just thought I would let ya'll know about our weekend! Well, actually it started Thursday night! At about 7:00 pm ish I got a phone call from my mother-in-law, Linda! She sounded happy enough as she said, "Guess where I am?" When I asked where, she said Jordan Valley Medical Center. I asked why, thinking she was there visiting someone she knew, cause she is always doing things for other people. She told me she was in a car accident. She didn't exactly know how bad it was, but they brought her by ambulance on a back board and wouldn't let her get off. She drove a 1991 Honda Civic Hatchback, and was hit by a 3/4 ton Chevy. He rearended her going 45 miles per hour as she was coming to a stop. She said that she was going to get someone to give her a blessing, and I told her if she would wait we would be there in like 15 min. Tom was asleep and he woke right up when I said that and was asking me who it was and what was going on. I told him and of course he was kinda freaking out!! Linda had a spinal fusion when she was 14 years old as a result of polio and would be in a lot of trouble if one of those cracked! I told her to call Melinda and let her know what was going on and we would swing by and pick her up on the way to the hospital. Well, we got to Melinda's and she didn't answer her door or phone, so I just kept calling and when she finally answered I asked if she was ready to go to the hospital with us. She had no idea what I was talking about and I had to tell her what had happened. That was horrible, but as soon as she got out to the car, we got a hold of Linda and she was able to talk to her. She happened to be in the shower when Linda tried to call her and when she had seen that she missed so many calls, she tried calling Linda and couldn't get a hold of her. Anyways, we made it to the hospital and she was off the back board, but still had a neck brace on. Tom gave her a beautiful blessing and blessed her that she would be able to get well! After a while they took her for x-ray and ultrasound. While she was gone, some other friends came and helped give Tom and Melinda blessings to help them feel at peace! They are just a bit uneasy about anything happening to anyone in their family since they lost their dad, which I think is pretty understandable! Well, she got back from radiology and we waited for the results. Everything looked great!! We were so relieved! We were able to take her home and Tom and I ran to get her perscription. It was about 1:00 am by the time we made it home and we were all exhausted! We said a few prayers of gratitude and all tried to go to bed. Tom and I stayed up for at least a half hour more trying to decide if it would be better for me to go to work or stay home at 7:00 am. I really wanted to stay and take care of Linda, but she had Melinda and Tom there and I wasn't sure how much she needed me, when we were so short staffed at work! I decided I was too tired to decide then and set my alarm for 5:00 am and decided I would figure it out then! I kept waking up because I was having acid reflux that was really hurting me, and at 3:00 am I woke up with the worst acid reflux I had ever felt! I decided I needed to go throw up. I got up and threw up quite a bit and it burned SO bad! I needed to go to the bathroom so I yelled for Tom to get me a bowl I could throw up in. That's when I started throwing up blood! Lots of it! We decided that we better go to the hospital. I got to IMC ER and they, of course, sent me over to Labor and Delivery. They put me on the monitors and while they were getting my history I threw up more blood! This time at least it was less! They brought me in something for nausea and something to help reduce the acid in my belly. They took some blood and of course my blood count was low, but not dangerous yet, so if they could reduce the acid and stop me from throwing up, I would probably be okay and they wouldn't need to scope me! I did not want to be scoped! I didn't want to be sedated while I was pregnant, and I wasn't about to do it unsedated! We were able to go home about 9:30 with a perscription for acid medication! We went and picked up Linda and went to see the car. It was TOTALLED!! The truck had hit the back, where she had her massage table, which rammed into her seat bending her seat back over the massage table, and the bent part jammed into her back. This gave us the reason for the big bruise and cut on her back, and let us know how truly blessed she was to not have any of those fusions separate! Then we took her to the doctor to have a follow up and decide what to do to get her better and working again! We got home and made dinner and ate and all of us crashed! We were all so tired, especially where Tom and I had only gotten an hour and a half of sleep! We do feel very blessed however that even know all these things had to happen, neither one of us were injured beyond repair!

Tom's Song

Have you ever heard a song that has touched you so deeply, you just couldn't stop thinking about it and what it meant for you? Well, usually I have that happen with a country song or a church song, but this time it was with a rock song! I have no idea how that happened. At Thanksgiving time, when we were on our way home, Tom had a CD in. It was just quiet and I was actually listening to the words. It was crazy, all of the sudden it hit me! I asked, "Is this like your theme song?" Tom was caught off guard and he listened to it again, and was like, "Wow, it kinda is!" I love this song because it talks about a boy who was picked on as a kid, but when he got older he had such a great life and wanted everyone to know that he had succeeded in life. Well, even if that's not what it means in real life, that's what it means to me! Tom had a hard childhood. He wasn't the most popular kid and a lot of kids made fun of him for one reason or another. People told him he would never succeed in this life! Well, I am here to tell them they are wrong! He is a huge success as a man, preisthood holder, husband, father, son, brother and part of society! He has had a lot of pain in his life for many reasons, but through his faith he is able to work through the pain! He is the most amazing man I have ever met and I am so glad he chose to spend the rest of eternity with me!! I honestly don't know what I would do without him in my life! So I say to all you who used to put down my husband, take a look at all the blessings he has! And know that he blesses my life every day just by being who he is!! Enjoy! This is Almost Over by Limp Bizkit